Having trouble losing weight.

Hey there - lately, I've been having trouble losing weight and sticking to my diet plans, and I'm not quite sure why. About two years ago I weighed 252lbs - now, after going up and down dramatically (and almost gaining it all back) and down at 219lbs and near my lowest weight (during my first diet attempt) at 217lbs. However, I've recently gotten to a stand still and have even gained some weight back - I'm returning back to my old habits, and I do not want to return to where I was. I'm not at my ideal weight (140-150lbs) but I'm so much more comfortable at this weight then I was at 252, I DON'T want to backtrack and have to work it all off again. I'm returning to my gym tomorrow (I recently graduated, and have been too busy dealing with that to make the trip for the past six weeks or so) but I'm just afraid that after I get home I'll spend the entire day eating pizza and ice cream...

I really have no idea what's wrong with me. I'm on Jenny Craig (they provide all my meals for me - and the meals that I do order from them are delicious and just enough to keep me satisfied) but I can no longer stick to the plan. I'm starting to think that, subconciously, I'm afraid of being at a healther weight...or maybe, I just have no will power. I don't know. My friend has suggested to me that it also might be my boyfriends fault - I recently started going out with a boy (of normal proportion) who has openly admitted that he could care less about my body type, and finds me beautiful even if I'm not 'stick thin'; but, I don't quite know if it's that either because I want to lose more weight for his benefit, not to mention that I care just as much for him as I do for my own health and accomplishments.

I have no idea what's going on. Any suggestions of what to do would be wonderful. I'm tired of having my weight rule my life.

I am also on Jenny Craig and have had my willpower tested. You have to believe in yourself that the weight loss can be accomplished. If you have an off day were you went over your set caloric intake, then back track and try to figure out why you over ate. Writing in a journal about your feelings at the time also helps.I've found that after writing in my journal,that I wasn't really hungry but stressed. Instead of finding something fun and relaxing to do, I chose to stuff something in my motuh that I really didn't want. I was trying to fill a void. The only void food can fill is your stomach not your mind and heart. Losing weight because you have a new signifigant other in your life is wrong and can have a negative effect on your weight loss goals. You should be doing it because you want to and because you feel like it will have a positive influence in your life. if he truly cares about you, then he will support no matter what your decision is. take it one day at a time and never give up. keep your eye on the prize. Dedication to yourself should never be temporary. Always keep youeslef number one on the list. Hopefully this helped and maybe you have already reached your goals. Take care:) Bye